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But what makes this verse even harder to work around as a single Christian gal ( and one that has been single for quite a while btw ) is that it isn't a single ( no pun intended..ok perhaps a very small one ) verse in a Chapter on singleness. Or even a paragraph. It's helpfully in a Chapter on marriage and the very next verse states.....
"But if they cannot exercise self-control, they should marry. For it is better to marry than to burn with passion." 7:9
Fabulous. But how does it work in 2010 when exercising self control is a lot more intense than exercising self control than in 1010, the population has grown but the Christian community (sadly) has over time diversified into other gods, religions and disbelief and you get to the age as a single Christian woman living in Sydney feeling like the choice of being married has been taken away from you for many different reasons ?
I was talking to Miss Chicago last night ( pretty much the last single friend I have left actually and she is a good 8 years younger than I am *sigh* ) about how I celebrated my birthday the day before yesterday and I admitted that I actually spent it alone that night. Now I had organised to do something nice the next day with a whole bunch of women/chicks who are all wonderful family members and friends & little people and pretty much every other year since my last relationship ended I've spent the night at my parents place where Marvelous Mum has made me my favourite dinner. But since I had the Saturday event planned, Friday night was just me. So I ordered some nice Thai food, bought a cupcake and a candle and blew it out after saying a heartfelt prayer to God that this be the year that I meet someone or that He take away the heart yearning, sob inducing desire to have a husband and kids.
I've been reading and been inspired by a few other people's blogs recently and after to talking to my friend last night I started to wonder if I had something to offer here to the 'blogosphere'. So here I am trying to find inspiration in this season in my life ( that is seemingly going on forever ) and staying faithful and trusting God but wanting to be honest too about what it's like to be a single, Christian woman in Sydney in 2010.
Hence this blog. You'll get to know more about me as we count down the 365 days, my online and hopefully offline dating adventures ( and I shake my head as I write this as there have been some doozies ), some of my dreams but hopefully the good, bad, tissue grabbing, independent adventures and just boring Friday nights just me and the remote. If you've worked out who Miss365 is - please don't feel bad for me or out me ( for now anyway ) just add me to your prayer list that I get my hearts desire or He gently helps me alter that desire so that I don't want it anymore.
See you on Day -364
xMiss365
I'll keep you in mind when I pray. Please pray for me, too. I want to be a wife and mom...but it's looking like my dream is slooooowly slipping away. Dang.
ReplyDeleteOf course I'll pray for you Shannon. And thank you for saying you'll pray for me too. I hear you - but don't give up your hope entirely either.
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The waiting is hard. The praying needs deeper faith as the years roll by. But one of my favourite Bible verses is Hebrews 11:11b "Because she believed that He who had promised was faithful."
ReplyDeleteIn the mean time I pray for him, my husband, often and with true faith that he is and that just like me, he too is waiting.
Thank you for your lovely comment. :)
ReplyDeleteYes the waiting is hard. And I actually think I'm too scared to pray for "my husband" any more, I'm probably now lacking in faith that he'll ever appear. After all it's not something God promised all of us or me specifically so I guess I've given up praying for him.
I love that verse too. Thank you. I'll have to check out your blog. :)
xMiss365