-234 Not so random thoughts

....I watched Once Upon a Time and thought of Jeanine from Wayfaring Girl on a Mission and prayed for her  and her family this past week, so sad for her loss but grateful for the certainty that she has about her Mum's salvation. But I also wish that I could have teleported myself over there this week to give her a quick hug too. 


....I saw a rainbow last week and I thought of Gail from Gail's Angle's new blog design and how she loves the rainbow tag cloud at the bottom of her page......


....I was in McCafe grabbing a coffee yesterday morning when I spied some animal crackers on the shelf and I wondered if Shannon had given up on her blog ( no she hasn't ) and that I now can't look at animal crackers without thinking inside my head "Shanimal's Crackers". True......




.....I was in a crazy classroom this afternoon and I thought of Chronicler from Annals of  Christian Single and her Tales of a Classroom in her early posts and I wondered how she would go in this one. And came to the conclusion that she would love it! ......


....I walked past a sock shop the other day and spied some Rainbow knee socks. Of course I associated them with Ms Blase from The Unpopular Girl in Womanhood and how I always have to copy and paste her name into my comments and I really need to ask her to tell me a shortcut to type her name properly ;).....


....and my Mum was talking about her cyber friend Michelle the other day and I immediately thought of the lovely Michelle that comments on my posts here and has always been so encouraging and supportive......


xx Miss365

-236 A short heartfelt post

To those of you whom have left comments and sent me emails.

Thank you.

Thank you for your prayers, your words, your thoughts and for taking the time to notice I was AWOL with this blog writing. Your words were like a shower of glitter that blessed my heart when I finally logged into my email and read them.

Today was the first Sunday that God didn't deal with me in His persistently persistent way that I didn't have tears streaming down my face at least once today so the changes that have happened in the past 6 or so weeks have obviously made some difference.

There is still a fair bit of anxiety and obviously a fair bit of avoidance going on but I really believe that one of the things that has helped a lot is signing off from the online dating for a while and working on my fitness and nutrition.

I'll come back in the next day or so and write an updated post but now that I feel that I can write about being single and living this life again from this perspective and be honest about it  - I'm back. :)

Again your comments and emails made my heart sing more than you can imagine. I never would have thought that God could build a community like this so quickly and one that cares so genuinely, particularly since most of us have no idea what we all look like. ;)

xMiss365

-290 Single Blogging Community vs. Single Community in Real Life

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This weekend has been one of those weekends of contrasts. I've found solace and excitement in finding new members of the Single & Fabulous  ( and non single and amazing ) Blogging Community and also once again realising that while I have amazing and wonderful friends in real life through stepping down from a particular ministry last year and the fact most of them are either married with young kids, newly married or geographically challenged ( lol, haven't used that term in a while! ) I feel disconnected every weekend from that community if there is no pre arranged event planned by someone. 

I think I mentioned in an earlier post that I wanted to see Gnomeo and Juliet and I have yet to see it because I am simply tired of seeing movies on my own. WHINE ALERT AHEAD! - so of course last weekend and this weekend I couldn't find anyone to go with. The reason ? Family commitments either with their own plans for entertainment with their husbands and kids or family bbqs and parties. *sigh* And before you tell me the joy of going to movies on my own - I am well versed in going to see movies on my own or I wouldn't have seen hardly any movies in the past number of years at the actual movies but I am seriously and simply tired of doing it. Over it. With a captial O.

Where did my community of friends go where we used to hang out, go see bands on weekends, grab a coffee, have dinner out, go for random trips to the beach in the afternoon?....Oh yeah they formed their own community. Their family unit. Which I completely get. It's just that I am feeling the loss and I don't actually know anyone else who is single that I can do these things with at the moment. I think this is the fourth weekend I've spent at home on my own. There has been stuff I wanted to do but because I am in this funk of being tired of doing stuff on my own I've been napping a lot, reading, on the computer and sighing. *sigh*

Praying for a way to fix this. And if I do stay single this will pass because my friend's kids will get bigger and will form their own community of friends and I'll get my friends back again. But I'm not sure how else to expand my world without neglecting the one I have.

That said I've had a fun weekend reading these new blogs and getting insight into other people's lives and I'm finding I'm neglecting the pile of books I want to read because I'm finding all your lives much more interesting. :)

Monday tomorrow. Big busy work day.

xMiss365

-292 Singleton Community

Photo by renjith krishnan

Just a short post tonight as I've been spending my Friday night following links and discovering a whole bunch of new blogs to read. Some are from other Christian Single Females and others are Christian Marrieds and others are Singles out there in the big wide world all of us pondering similar issues. Some things I've read tonight made me laugh really loudly and others made me tear up but there were so many common threads.

So many of us are trying to find that balance of wanting to love the benefits of being single while still not becoming bitter and giving up on the idea of relationships and marriage. 

I wonder how many of these blogs will cease to exist in six months or a years time because the writers have either found 'the one' or become so disenchanted that even blogging and the single community that comes from blogging about it isn't enough anymore. 

Only time will tell.

xMiss365