As I blew out that candle I sobbed to God that this be the year that I meet someone, that this time of singlehood would finally come to an end.
And as you can tell if you've stuck around, it has not.
But it's ok because as you can also tell He has blessed me with different learning experiences, fun times, sad times, friendships, repairing of friendships and other 'drawing me closer to Him' times in the meantime.
There have been potential Bachelors come and go and now I'm taking a rest from online dating and trusting Him and seeing what He can do.
I've been working on getting my fitness and my body back and I've lost 10kg in the past 11 weeks.
I have a peace that I can hardly describe because He keeps holding my hand and taking the root killer out and ripping out the root causes to my anxiety and perfectionism.
He gave me an out with the job situation that was causing my life to become a tangled mess and brought out the insecurities in both myself an in other people.
New friendships were made solid thought it all and old friendships were tested but have come out the otherside different but hopefully stronger.
I'm content and stretched at the same time.
And ready for the next 365 days.
Just not sure how often I'll be blogging about it. I promise I'll be back if anything exciting happens of if I start dating or if I meet someone but for now this blog is going to have a bit of a rest.
Thank you so much for those of you that read this regularly, commented, ever commented, prayed or are just reading this now. I am always contactable via 365christianandsingle@gmail.com and I will be popping back and reading your blogs.
A Time for Everything
1 There is a time for everything,and a season for every activity under the heavens:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
Ecclesiastes 3 1-8
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