Tuesday, 30 August 2011
-239 Help fatigue
And my day started off happy and all was good.
But I started to notice as the day wore on I was less inclined to want to help others when they asked for it. I didn't exactly say "No" but I was a little lazy in my answers. At one stage, after I had just bitten into a rather large piece of chilli in my Pork roll, that perhaps that was my consequence for giving half hearted "helpful" answers.
So after getting a fair amount of work done and having a slightly anxious conversation with colleagues about something that is coming up in our sector I got in the car, drove about 100 metres down the road and...
...burst into tears.
And there have been random acts of crying since.
I won't bore you with all the details but I've prayed a lot this afternoon and I've reached the point of what I call "Help Fatigue". My job is essentially helping others and speaking encouragement, wisdom and gentle "What on earth were you thinking?!" on an hourly basis every day.
I love my job. But it's a give, give, give job too.
And on other days I've felt like this in the past I've been in close proximity to kid cuddles or within a day or two of being involved in a community where someone may notice my sad eyes or because of that community I felt connected and less alone.
And the feeling passed.
But now I'm no longer connected to that community and I'm not in close proximity to kid cuddles - I'm just at a loss.....honest post, hey? :)
So tonight I feel like I am suffering temporarily from help fatigue, disconnected & lacking in kid cuddles.
I'm ok. I promise. And it has nothing to do with the Bachelor Updates or my retirement from online dating.
I just keep thinking tonight......
This too shall pass. :)